So you know I don't usually post like this very often, but I have to do this someplace I won't be judged or tossed into a hospital.

My hypomania has now become a very severe depression. One of the worst I have had in six months or so now.

I have had two "events" in the past week that has my T asking if I should go back to the hospital or to partial hospitalization again. I have flat-out refused to do that. I'm trying to get through grad school and time out for that is just going to cause me to lose this semester. No way.

I am using my coping skills. I am seeing T a lot. Too much, if you ask me. Getting sick of the sight of him. My husband is doing what he can as well.
I don't see pdoc for a few more weeks. He has no sooner openings.

I'm doing all the right things, but it hurts so much. I don't understand. I still have trouble accepting that I am bipolar and that sometimes the moods just suck for no particular reason.