ok, first, take a deep breath in and breathe!
This sounds so stressful, i'm sorry you have to go through all of this!
Try not to worry on the "what if's" .. i used to combat my what ifs with turning it around..
What if she doesn't care; to what if she does care.

having a plan b like you do is a really great idea!
Question, would she really be in this profession if she didn't care? if she just doesn't get you, are you able to find a new one that will?
That last one, about getting commited is my number one fear as to why i dont like talking to people who have that authority to do so. But I am able to combat that fear with the way i word things. such as there's a few things that will get one commited instantly, but if you say it like you feel a certain way, but don't plan on acting on it (the emphasis on dont plan on acting on it) they listen and are willing to work things out with you and what you want, and dont want.

Maybe just talking it out with your pdoc at the first about how your stressed and anxious about what you want to talk about, and need some advice on how to ease this? (it can also break the ice)

(((((((Jarebear)))))))))!!!!