I can't stand these feelings anymore, why doesn't God hear me or at least just let me not wake up???? I'm sitting here, miserable, can't even get myself up to take a damn shower, tried to eat this morning and again it sent me rushing to the bathroom, have let my teeth go and they used to be white and perfect and i'm just a pathetic waste of space. My life has/is fallen apart and I have enough pills to get the job done, only my Christianity is stopping me, but i don't want it to. I just want to go. Iv'e had enough!