I asked him not to tell me. I told him if he said something I disagreed with I would feel misunderstood and get really mad. If I think someone isn't listening or isn't getting what I'm saying it's a huge trigger for me. We just started, and I tend to quit everything; I didn't need to give myself another reason to quit this!

I think I used to want a dx because I thought it would definitively explain the process that led to my symptoms. I'm not so sure now. I also thought it would help me feel less "weird" because I'd know that other people go through the same things. It might still be good for those reasons--I can always change my mind later, but I can't un-know it once I know!

I'll focus now on building the relationship with my T. We had a good talk about my fear of the diagnosis. I'm glad that folks here encouraged me to discuss it and ask for what I wanted. I'm definitely saving this thread so I can refer back to it the next time I hit this issue!