So my new manager at work tries to be so nice yet belittles me when he gets a chance, he nitpicks at me and it's totally unfair, then he said something out of line about my bf who works there and it's like he's always trying to piss me off- and I just really need to get another job but everythings fine except for him, except it's a miniscule job and while my coworkers are nice and most of the customers are nice to me, I also know they look down on me, which is really hard to deal with.l I wish people weren't so superficial and elitist in this town. **** em. Ugh, and I want to drink sooo bad, I just got off the phone with my mom and she asked me, "You're not going to just drink are you" And I said, "What if I am?" She said that would make me an alcoholic and perhaps she's right, but right now I don't really see the harm in a drink or two . . . I know, it's not the healthy way to deal with emotions, but either is cuting myself -something I haven't done in several years now. It's just frustrating to be stuck at this 'lowly' job with the education I have, yet there doesn't seem to be anywhere else I fit in and I';m tired of other people's vanity and belittling looks and eye rolling as they turn away because they think I'm some loser. Perhaps I am. I don't push myself enough. I never have. If I lived a thousand years ago, I'd be the village philosopher, too bad that's not a smart vocation these days. You have to go where the money is, not where you're heart is. Damn. I'm having that drink now . . .