Thanks so much to you both ((((((Sundog))))))) and ((((((SS)))))))) for making it safe to share what's going on in my head. I get to feeling so alone with my train wreck of a life. I get so confused and obsess about how real is the mental illness versus how much am I convincing myself of disabilities. I could identify with the conflicts and inner pain that you both shared about. The panic, the anxiety, fearing the worst scenarios, feeling so alone with it all. I feel for both of your struggles, and wish that I could do something to make it better for you. I'm so grateful for you being there for me. SS, I'm glad that things turned around, and that your sister and your ex will be a source of help and support.