you know i hate, for the past month and a half i lost track of so many threads i have written here and decided to delete it. just poured everything out than wiped it all away, whenever i enter this forum, i write everytime......i thought why i guess some things need to be said at a more personable level then just sent out there for whoever it may be to come across it and respond or just read. don't know i usually don't have these problems, as in right now writing this.