Dear Calista+:

I have been where you are, in T for a long, long time and finally accessing very deep and scary feelings. First, I'm sorry that you experienced a great deal of pain when you were little--you did not deserve that at all. Second, it sounds like part of why this is coming up is that all your parts finally feel safe enough, especially in the room with T, to begin letting these feelings up.

So I really encourage you to try as best you can. It ended up being SO healing for me to tell the truth about what happened to me and how it felt, to be seen and let my T support me with as much kindness and skill as he did. Just food for thought.

Remember: Courage isn't getting to a point where you're not scared. Courage is taking the step even though you're scared.

You can do this. You are brave, and have a safe space and a safe person to back you up. And we are all here with you.

Take good care of yourself... LG