Thank you so much Sun. Yup, back in the game as a player and not a victim. Feels good. So much weight has been lifted because I let people in rather then shutting them out. That is actually really HUGE for me.

One of the gains that can be taken forward for me is to remember that there is always light at the end of the tunnel. I may need others to guide me in the right direction, to walk with me, to pick me up if I fall or to even carry me forward when I have no strength of my own but that is okay. I do not need to do this alone. I can ask for help and it doesn't mean I am weak or incapable. It just means I could use the help. I don't need to walk it alone. I don't need to prove anything to myself or anyone else.

As defeated as I might feel or as hopeless as things might look sometimes, I can never ever know what is coming around the corner. There is no point in projecting forward those kinds of feelings or thought. There is no gain in seeing things through the eyes of pain.

It takes me back to so much of the teachings we have shared with one another here. The importance of returning to the moment that we are in. Not imposing anything from the past, any thought of the futher but only on the peace that we allow ourselves to receive when we choice to go into the mindlessness of now. So profound, so simple, yet so hard to remember when it 'feels' like we are heading towards a train wreck. Even train wrecks can be avoided if we are attentive to the curves on the track when they come into our sights, if we stay focus on where we are one chug-a-lug at a time.