hi dear friend....sorry to hear that you are going through a rough time but surely can be expected after all you've been through..i have a feeling that its all caught up with you...and i know that you've just restarted your meds......try to relax.....take things slow.....try not to let jerry get to you (hard as that may be..lol).....remember we all handle things differently even jerry...lol....focus on the good.....that baby for one thing.....and know that in time the dust will settle....it always does...try to remember that......and..........with all my holiday eating...i'm even a softer place to fall...smile.....love you julia.....if you need ANYTHING.....i'm here.....