If I had called and heard the recording to call 911 for an emergency I don't know how well I would have handled that but you kept on trying until you got through and then to have been routed to the wrong state and still you see the positive of 'passing time' in the experience. I just think that it takes a very special, wonderful person to handle such an experience so well. I'm just very sorry that you are having to go through this. When my depression is severe I feel as though it may be pressing the life right out of me it hurts so terribly You are a very special person and I hope by the time you read this you are feeling better and if not I hope the pain is better soon and here are some gentle ((())) to give you a bit of comfort.