rain what can i say?i could have wrote about this.i so know these fears and confusion.i think you just need to trust your T is able to deal with these strong feelings.she ISN'Tgoing to leave you or think badly of you.i think you are doing the best you can.i know a lot of times i am on the oposite end of the spectrum as far as T goes but i do know that you T must care about you a great deal and maybe just try to trust in that and know she would do nothing to hurt you