...TRIGGER.... sm mention of SI




yesterday was such a bad day for me.i was just so full of anger for my T and everything.all i wanted to do was SI because it makes me feel better.but i DIDN'T.i am glad of this i seemed to be ok for now.i went shopping and did some crafts and believe it or not i called a friend.i havnt done this in years and years.she knows my son and accually talked to him yesterday morning.she knows how i am feeling with him.he is on standbye right now and getting ready to head over to the main land.i am not going to say i am fine but i seem to be ok today.i am still angry at T because i dont know how to deal well with all this alone and believe me i do feel alone but today i am ok.maybe i am getting over the shock about my son and believing he is and will be ok