((((((Lauru)))))))

Life is a cycle. You know this. But it is hard to be in this world when death is a part of birth.

My advice while you wait for your T is to not yet mourn what will happen. There will be enough time for that when nature happens. Right now it is your chance to make the very most of each day you have your mom.

My S/O had her mother move up here with us, and she was in wonderful health. Thankfully, we try to leave each day fully. Momma was that way and loved to enjoy every single day. Of course, when she was first born, the doctors told her parents she wouldn't live past the age of 16. When she got pregnant, the doctors told her they wanted to take the baby because there was no way her body would survive childbirth. That baby became the love of my life - my S/O.

Because each day was a known miracle for momma, she taught me how to respect life. She knew she could go any day (along with spine curved and other things, her heart had issues from compression). But it was not our place to dread what would happen. It was our place to learn from her how to enjoy every day for what gift it really was.

She died suddenly and it floored us. It hurt us deeply. But because we had participated fully in her LIFE , we knew we hadn't missed the best part of knowing her.

Trust me on this one. You will have some fear, and that is natural. But each time the fear comes up, focus on reaching out to your mom and connecting in the NOW. Enjoy what you have when you have it.

BIG BIG hugs to you!!