Stop with thinking about the future at all and work to staying right here, right now. You can't know the future but you can influence it by sabotaging yourself, making up and believing things like that the person won't care or wants to ruin your future.

Worry is only possible because you have a wonderful imagination and use it to hurt yourself instead of help. If you have to imagine things about the future, which no one can know, then why not imagine good things? Why not imagine that you will get a wonderful, caring, helpful therapist who will be an ally and make things easier for you?