Thanks, fayerody. I'm not exercising lately, although I plan to start again. I'm trying to get control of my eating first. While I'm allowing myself hot chocolate, when it runs out, I'm not getting more. That's one of my treats as of late. I didn't buy more mini marshmallows last grocery trip, which I'd normally do for hot chocolate. I am going to try to resist buying more whipped cream. I didn't buy ice cream or any junk, I'm happy to say.

I do want to start walking, but it's too cold right now. I also worry about people striking up a conversation with me, because they might touch me or want to be social, which can lead to inviting me into their homes, or wanting to get together later, and my OCD can't deal with that. Even though I'm open about my OCD, I get very shy about explaining certain things about it, because I'm ashamed. Plus, people get frustrated with me easily, because I will have to tell them I can't do this, or this, or that, because of my OCD, and I'm I'm ruining any fun for them (or me). I prefer to avoid dealing with that. Plus, our neighbor might be out, and she wants to get together and do stuff. I couldn't say no to going into her apt. when my bf and I came home from grocery shopping one night. I excused us to go put our stuff away in our apt., but we had to go to her apt. after, and then when we went home, I had to do a lot of washing.

I know vegetables are excellent, but I just can't seem to stick to cooking with them, and eating them. I hate washing fruits and veggies, having to cut them up, and all that. I'm not crazy about the taste of many, and can only eat so much before I'm bored mad. I do like salads now and then, but I don't like making them. I still hope to get more veggies in my diet, but so far, I've not done well at it.

I am working on getting off my meds so I can stop seeing a T altogether. I can't afford any other T's in my area...I've called, and the few who take Medicare still require a co-pay I can't afford (nor my boyfriend, who pays my co-pay, actually). I've seen many T's over the years, and right now, I have to depend on a clinic.