No you are not the same person you used to be. And when you have been on this journey for awhile, you will see you have a choice of what kind of person you will become...more compassionate and fuller or bitter, sour and resentful.

Miss your daughter, your brothers, your loss of what others are experiencing...give yourself that permission. But DON"T play the waiting game of the next tragedy. Give yourself the gift of the moment...however painful, however difficult. There is hope, it's not gone and excitement isn't gone either it is just shadowed right now. You'll find it again, believe me. It will just take time.
That you have.