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Zorah said:
It is POSSIBLE, but unlikely, that this would be your first intimation of DID.
Have you had lost time in the past ?
Have you had episodes of dissociation, fugue, or any other symptoms like that?
Do you have memories of a continuous past ? Which all feels like you experienced it ?
Perhaps you have recovered a memory of a trauma, that would still not make you dissociative.
You should talk to your t about this, but don't expect a dissociative dx.

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This is what my answers are to the best of my ability:
I cannot remember too much from my childhood all the way until my college years. My memories of my abuse are not even clear.
I always feel like I am the observer in my life...I am looking in. I can take part of something happening or go off into a nother world but it isn't me in the present.
I often feel like I have de ja vu...meaning ....something will happen and I swear it already happened. But it is stupid stuff nothing significant.

I am not looking for a DID dx...just help in understanding WTF is going on in my head. Very afraid to tell T....
I started trauma recovery therapy about 6 months ago and it seems most of what goes on in me is new.