Hey HaybeeHalo,
Im so sorry that you had to go through all this , in some ways I can relate to your live. I know how this feels , and to be honest Ive been close enough to taking my own life plenty of times but there is always something to hang on for , how small it may seem. I'm praying and thinking for you many for you . And if you need to talk to vent or whatever you want. please contact me, anyday, no matter what.
I want to help and im here for you