I hope they'll help... I've had a minor blip this month, not as serious as yours sounds, but still that sort of mixed mania that drives you up the wall. It's not you, not the core of you... it's just your brain, not your mind, if that makes sense. The brain, as a physical organ, has the wrong chemicals buzzing around it at the moment. But in the middle of that you are still you. Hang onto that.