I totally know what you mean. I really don't want to be on meds for the rest of my life. I don't want to have to worry about filling prescriptions and making sure I have my meds when I travel. I'm going abroad next fall and will have to make arrangements to get enough meds. The idea of being on pills for the rest of my life makes me unhappy, despite the good these pills do for my mental/physical/emotional well being.