Not altogether fond of taking meds either, but do know that it's much better for me if I do, after living with bipolar unmedicated for 25 years or so (which means since I was quite young)! I'm not sure yet what normal, even mood is, but I would like to know, so I'll stay on meds.....though the restrictions might irk me a bit....it's better than falling into progressively worse cycles of mood as I have been doing.