thanks wepow for the encouragement. Somewhere inside I know I did the right thing by getting this extra session. Between the quote and running into HER(sick,sick lady from my past) we will be very busy tomorrow in T. As far as the emotional space I dont have a choice I feel inside emotionally like when one opens a can and it explodes crap everywhere. And I am trying to be gentle but I am not very good at that...I always end up beating myself up for something.