that's the bipolar talking!

It's part of the disease. So many of us feel better, go off our meds, and land in the ER or just plain manic as hell, risking stds, spending all our money, or even hallucinating.

Every time you have an episode, it is worse than the time before. They call this "kindling". A manic episode might not be fun. It might be mood dysregulation where you start sobbing fir no reason. Or, you might start sending nonsense to your friends or saying really nonsensical things which you think are just fine. Or, you might go psychotic and hear voices or see other hallucinations- some of which might be really scary.

Please- take your meds. Even on meds, I've had breakthrough psychosis. You have to accept your diagnosis and move on from there.