Yep, yep.

I think the thing that I still have the most problem with today is having to rely on, then trust, others.

I have to rely on those in my life to tell me when I don't know, then I have to trust them to be telling me the truth. I used to think that I was surrounded by liars. That really made the trust issues that much more.

At the other end, hubby and others were suspicious of me as well. I couldn't answer questions about where I was, what I'd been doing or why "I" did certain things.

One of the last attorneys that I worked for was more like an uncle. He would know when things weren't right and would come out a bit later and ask me what we had discussed in the office. His fav saying, "You never cease to amaze me." LOL. A part of me could write up legal pleadings, complaints, answers, etc., better than alot of attorneys...from scratch. LOL. One day, a magistrate stopped me in the hall of the courthouse and asked me to attend a class she was having for attys and paralegals on new domestic relations laws. I was honored, but freaked. LOL. Once I found myself in an interview for a job that I knew I couldn't do. However, we were there and had "passed" and was being offered the position at 20 yrs. I ran out of there. I can go on and on.

I didn't understand these things and would just "put them away". A couple of really big things happened and I sought therapy. It became clear pretty quickly that I wasn't the average cookie. Not long ago, a memory came out of an even 8 yrs. old where I had no clue, but there was documented proof. It helped me to trust my memories so much. So much has been validated. That's good and bad.

KD