Thank you Innerzone. As for the title, I think dissociation describes best how I feel in the description that follows...Emotionally paralysed, I can't respond to what's happening or to people's efforts to get to me. It's not that I'm unfeeling, it's similar to the feeling you get in those dreams where you have to move out of the way because a car is coming and suddenly you're very heavy and you try your best but you move extra slow...And I have no idea what trauma I respond to in this way. I think it is a reaction to overloading...