I see T today.

For the last three nights, I have had HORRIBLE insomnia. I am SO tired, but I go to bed and it's so loud in my head. And it's frustrating, because I'm too sleepy to even keep my eyes open, but there I am, awake. And then when I DO go to sleep, I have nightmares that wake me up, and there I am AGAIN, awake.

I get lots of exercise and fresh air, I don't drink caffeine late in the day..there's no reason for me to be awake, but my brain is so busy. I am really really tired.

Part of me wants to cancel T today. I feel like I'll either be too vulnerable, because of my lack of sleep, or I'll be too brain-dead to do any work. And part of me thinks that I need to go and work out whatever is going on in my brain, so it can quiet down and I can get some rest.

I've never canceled at the last minute, so I know T wouldn't charge me.

I have a feeling the right thing to do is to GO. But, wow. There's something about it that's scaring me.

Maybe I'll go and take a nice 90 minute nap in my little T World of Safety.