I see her in 4 days, but since it is so far away, and I'm falling pretty quickly, I'm in trouble. I wish I had someone that I could talk to, who could help, but I just don't have a close friend with in about 8 hours drive. Which I know is not good for me. I've had to try and put things out of my head, but it's just doesn't seem to be working. If I don't find someone that wants to hear me out and not be scared, then .... who knows what could happen. I just wish that Some friend was right here, so I could just cry, and have some comfort around me. but for now, I guess PC will have to do.