HI, Maven,

I feel very sad for the way you feel. I really hate being alone at this point in my life, but it is infinitely better than to be alone while you are with someone who is supposed to care about you! I did that the last few years of my marriage, and I would much rather be by myself.

My heart goes out to you in your sadness...there is hope, though, I have seen it happen, and I know that it will happen for you. You are a special, beautiful creature, and you deserve the very best our Creator has to give you.

DJ