I'm so sorry, Nightside... it is one of the worst feelings when friendships disappear. It's happened more than once to me, often because of my condition. Please don't feel that you're a horrible person. There are still people who love you, and care for you. And I do think that if your friend was really a friend she could have gritted her teeth and got over it. Or said "I can't cope with this right now, I need a break." But to completely ditch the friendship is harsh. I understand she has her own issues, but still... I'm very sorry. (((hug))) hopefully being back in London, in a different environment, will help distract you for a while from your feelings.

In the meantime, another (((hug))).