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Originally Posted by Oceanwave
I wonder why you had the crisis in the first place, the one that you couldn't call T about. What's going on, do you want to share? I hope you are recovering fine after the cancer, but things might be really difficult right now.
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Things are difficult. I really needed someone to talk to, but I called T the week before, and I didn't want to bug him again. I really needed to talk to someone, because I was in over my head, but I was calmed down during the call. I was safe.
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Originally Posted by elliemay
Did he actually say that he was over his head? Did he say he decided it wasn't worth the fight?
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No he didn't say either of those, he wouldn't, I don't even think that he thinks that. That is ALL me, the way I see it.
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Originally Posted by granite1
you are not a f up at all .i hope you go to your session .then you will be able to see how your t is feeling and ask him about all this.at least then you will have more information to make a better decision.i'm sorry your trust in t has gotten so shaken up bye all this it must be making you feel so alone.i hope you are able to work things out
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Thanks granite....I do feel really alone, and really overwhelmed.
Sunrise....too much to quote it all...but in general, it was NOT my T's call to section me. It was the er social worker. What hurts is that when she phoned him he said he wanted me hospitalized. He didn't talk to me or anything.
As far as the benzos...I am not addicted, far from it. I very seldom take any. I was in a lot of physical pain that day. I tried to do my workout and couldn't get thru it. I was feeling fat and lazy and disgusted with myself. I took the extra Klonpin with Tylenol to a) kill the physical pain and b) relax me. It was more than rx'd, but it wasn't an overdose like the er and social worker made it out to be, it was only 3 mg. and all parties involved know that I don't consume alcohol, I don't like it and can't stand the smell of it.
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Originally Posted by Sannah
WP, if you did a pros and cons list about this therapist, which side would win out?
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The pro's would win, hands down.
The problem is this, I have a lot of very dark thoughts, and sometimes they slip out. T's don't want to hear any part. They just slam you in the hospital so they don't have to deal. Personally...it's been years of T, and no one will let me talk thru these thoughts. I need to talk thru them, they aren''t going away. I can't be hospitalized every time I say what's in my head..it doesn't work. And hospitals don't work.
So I am dead in the water, no way around it but to dump the mental health system and try to figure my way thru by myself. I am going to see T tomorrow. I will talk it out with him, because I like him too much to leave it at 2 not very well thought out voice mails. I am classier than that.