Hello, nice to see you all. I am mostly better from the pneumonia. I have a lot of worries right now about finances. Many bills that can't be paid as I quit and have no income. I have my hearing with an administrative law judge weds at 9:00 and I can't imagine that I couldn't be able to collect unemployment since the doc and T told me on many occasions to leave the job as it was too stressfull. I am also awaiting a cash in check on my retirement which means I get hit with 30% off the top but I need the money to pay off debts so we can live while I am deciding where to go from here. I want to open my own business teaching fiber art to adults and children and traveling to schools and museums etc. It is something I enjoy and I want to see if I can make it work. It's difficult as I live in the country and have no studio space in town. I really want to do it and make it work. I think I am done with social work. I have considered specialized foster care for children with physical disabilities as well but I don't think I want to go there.

Every night I can't get to sleep.My mind starts to race.

So many bills that need to be paid by mid-week and fidelity gave me 2 different answers on when to expect the check.

I have not been doing anything with fiber for a little while. Probably as I have been ill and busy. My baby is 18 tomorrow a.m.! She will spend it at the OCD treatment facility and that is okay, she is taking advantage of the program all that she can. Her brother saw her yesterday and says she looks good.

Before she left the doc had started her on thyroid meds and she told me today that with the meds she is absolutely normal. She is still tired and has had blood pressure issues with it going too low. I question if she drinks enough. She fainted the other day. Wish they would do an MRI of her brain just in case.

So I have read everyone a bit and am sorry I am not up to replying to everyone but give me a few days and I will be back on track.

I am lying next to my sleeping spouse and we have 4 dogs on the bed spread around. They are all sleeping and each one has their own special place in my heart.

Thanks for all of the support through my trials lately. Guess I burned out and hit a wall. OUCH. Take care all.