Two years of drug free is really, really terrific. You are in low spot right now and perhaps a bit worn out. For me my depression is kicking me pretty hard right now. I try to use it as a time to rest and let go until I feel a bit better. You are seeing someone so that is terrific also. Now that you are drug free you may be just getting started on a better life. It takes time and that is the hardest part. You are on your way and with being drug free and having someone in your life along with holding a job you have a lot going for you. Just keep working hard at it and be gentle with yourself. Allow old wounds to heal and know you are cared about. ((hugs))