sj? I dont know you but I'll tell yah u sure seem strong........ u were able to actually DO something to help yourself............ u got up and did THINGS.......... what is your everyday life like? Do u work? go out somewhere everyday? r u isolated like I am? Well, by my own choice I guess I isolate a lot....... rather spend time with my horses then my fellow human beings most of the time........... But when I really think I'm just gonna cut out the light.... it's a person I try to reach out to............... u seemed pretty desperate when u were posting and I couldn't help but wonder if u had any friends u could call on the phone and talk to......... I think if this board were a chat it would be better........... anyway, i just read the whole thread and Im glad u were able to provide a safe place 4 u. I wish I could do that better.