My mother died five years ago when I was 16. I have had a hard time coping with her death, but through a great counselor I have come to terms with my grief.

Ever since I can remember I have been very attached to those close to me. Because of this, I get very sentimental when having to deal with change. I am currently a college students living in the dorms, and when I have to move back and forth between home and the dorms each break it's always the same situation: I cry for a few days about leaving the dorms when I return home for break. I cry for a few days when I have to leave home for the dorms when break has ended. I literally feel like my heart is being ripped from my chest and that I may die. I get so panicked and distraught that I do nothing but sleep and cry.

I was on medication for anxiety about a month ago, but discontinued it once I felt I was making progress in my counseling. I really hate change and I am a bit of a control freak. I believe this contributes to my grief in moving. If I had it my way, I would just stay in one spot forever.

I have talked to my counselor about my intense sadness over moving and change and she told me that this happens to a lot of people who lose a parent during their childhood. So, I guess I just really want to know if there is a way to fix this so I am not so tormented each semester? I am returning to the dorms tomorrow, and I feel like my heart is being ripped to pieces. Please help!