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Hi Ygrec
My favorite line from the movie "No Country for Old Men" is: "If the rule you followed brought you to this, of what use was the rule?"
There may be a lot of dust on your path/in your past, but you survived and you have a better understanding of life. Hopefully, this can serve to make you feel more grateful for life and make the most of what you have now. It doesn't do anyone any good to remain stuck for any length of time in moments from the past. I don't think I've ever met anyone who successfully made up for the past. You can make amends and changes now, but it will never change your past.
The fantasy dream of "having it all" is just that - a fantasy - because you can't take any of that stuff with you. In the long term, it probably won't matter what you did/earned/collected in life, (I'm talking centuries from now), lol.
What matters is your journey, and your journey is uniquely your own - your very own personalized roller coaster. Your twists, dips, and deep dark tunnels may have been more intense than others - but you still have the chance to throw up your arms and enjoy the rest of the ride with appropriate caution.
I don't think any of us will win any type of trophy or award when it's over - but who would really want to miss the full experience of life? If there is an afterlife, wouldn't you want to be able to tell the complete story of your life from beginning to end?
As long as you don't burn yourself out, strive to give it your all each and every day from this day forward. It's all any of us can do. If we fall short, we might be given another day to try again.
Hang in there. Maybe one day we'll be able to swap our extreme adventure stories from the other side.
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