I think most people approaching the end of their lives are filled with regret. I've known many elderly people, both in homes, or at home with family, and there's something about approaching the end that wakens regret and fear.

Today I've been feeling as though I've made a ruin of my life, but I know I'm much younger than you, and might yet pull myself together. It feels though as if everything is a struggle, and all I try to build is built from sand. The tide's coming in, and the sun's going down, and all I've been doing with my life is building a kid's fort.

But as Sandee says, God can find beauty in ashes.