Ditto to what the other people said, Ygrec. Your life Is NOT over until it's over. My parents reared me in such a way that I only could start living a somewhat normal life later on. And I am still learning. No, I will never be able to go back and have a normal childhood and particularly a normal time as a teenager, but I am still working on picking up from where they left off and making course corrections.

I know you have done a lot of good in your life in other ways, and you did the best you could at the time. And you are doing a lot of good here. To some extent, you just didn't get the chance to learn people skills. We all know how intelligent you are, so I expect you might even move along more quickly than some people could in this learning process. It isn't easy, but please don't give up! You are a very valuable person and have much more that you can accomplish in the future.