I feel really numb.

Lately I've been actively trying out different 12-step programs....al-anon, CODA, and Adult Children....Tonight I went to my first CODA meeting. It seemed way less intense than all of the other 12 step programs I've been to, yet at the same time hit at one of my core issues.

The reason I've been seeking out these various groups is that my new therapist gave me the idea that my childhood issues, dysfunctional family/codependecy might be part of the cause of my depression.

Anyways, tonight at the group the "theme" sort of was about trusting yourself. This is something I really need to learn how to do lately. It's very hard for me to trust myself. It's hard for me to know what my best choice is...what's the right thing for me to do for my life. (I'm having a lot of issues with my current job and am having some confusion or lack of trust in myself about whether I should leave).

Another thing is that I am learning that it is very important for my mental health to practice good self-care....but at the same time I am finding it very hard to take care of myself. Why is that?

Anyways, these are just thoughts. I am wondering if others of you have found relief from some depression through 12-step groups or through working through childhood traumas. And how do you practice self-care, even when it is tough?