the fact that you feel fear and disgust about whatever it is, tells me that you probably would benefit from talking about it. For me talking about my traumas and working through them has helped me see the trauma in a different way. Instead of hating myself for what happened, I have compassion for myself. I feel sad and hurt by what happened...but I also realize that it has made me stronger, and also affected me in other ways that I am not so aware of. I am beginning to see how these early traumas...maybe even things I haven't always thought were even a "trauma" have had a huge impact on me. They impact my thoughts to my behaviors....everything.

Acknowledging this doesn't make me a victim to the traumas. In fact I feel stronger, for acknowledging them and trying to understand how they fit into my life.

Best of luck. Trust your therapist. She is there to help you and not to judge you. Just let her listen.