Oh Spaz, new love is so exciting. Do you really have to put the pressure of "forever" on it? Recently there have been some posts about the fragility of life, how improtant it is to learn how to "be here now", or like the song says, "Live like you are dying". Sorta like, if you spend all your time worrying about tomorrow, you 'll miss today, and, today is what's happening.
Sometimes we set ourselves up so we don't have to learn to be so vulnerable as loving in the moment leaves us. It's safer to worry about will he love me tomorrow than it is to feel his love today. You've got your work cut out for you. Old head trips die hard. "Forever" and "Never" are set-up words that we're better off without. Start learning to trust the future by learning to trust the present. Ya know? Happy trails to you and you r sweetie.