Rebecca,

Please be gentle with yourself. I can hear in your post how awful you are feeling. This illness is horrible. My parter suffered with it during her years at college and had to drop out more than once. She was at an ivy league school. No, they were not helpful to her. Some people understand the illness of major depression and some do not. Everything in life can be made up or re-gained somehow. But one's health is irreplacable. You know how you are feeling. Your body knows. The most important thing is to take care of yourself. Get to the doctor, to a new doctor(s) if need be. Therapy, meds, maybe even TMS? Let everything else go if you need to. Depression is an extremely serious illness. As Pegasus says, gently. But if all you have the strength for is to have tea... take your meds or call the doctor, so be it. Depression is as serious as cancer or AIDS or any other illness. If not more so because it hides behind the idea of being "the blues." After reading Noonday Demon one can see the toll it takes. Sometimes you have to try this or try that.
But, if it is any comfort to you, my partner who had been hospitalized for major depression - went back and finished out her undergraduate degree later.
Just focus on healing.