I find this a genuine and fascinating question: is it better to be an absentee or a "presentee" (i.e. your body is there, "the lights are on but nobody's home")? Looking back on my own experiences, I don't see a clear one-or-the-other, all-purpose answer. Being a presentee usually looks better to others, whether or not you appear like the walking dead, but sometimes being an absentee is valuable because it sends a needed message.

Hmmm... I'm not going to settle this in my mind any time soon.

Sorry to exploit your post for introspective musings, Justfloating. May something beyond mere hope or courage get you through the coming weeks.