Use of lists for appointments.

Planning is one of my strengths’, impatience my weakness, but for Therapy, my plans consist of making notes as things of interest during the week. The morning of the appointment I review, see what has been most on my mind, and I bring my list.
Therapy is two way interactions so the T, will let me know that he as a few items on his agenda, and often it was on mine as well.

I am also aware that planning can not be a control issue. As when things come up it is often what needs to be discussed even if not on the list.

I think my past Therapists worked on a system like they could 'fix' you and this can never work for me as I felt that it was my fault that I did not get 'it'.

As I now know as much as I wish to sit back and be fixed. This is my life and it is my work.

Critical is the trust the T will guide us by showing errors in thinking, showing us on the spot when we have an need to stop and breath, to teach awareness, opening other options and supporting us by teaching coping skills, that we can take away and practice in daily life.
Feeling authentic concern and intent to treat me as an individual, and to create a space where I can learn to walk with freedom to be myself.

I am grieving the ending of the best T relationship that I have had to date with the entire team of the day program. The ending is due to institutional mandates (maladies), rather than what the individual patient needs.

Having a list for the session, leads to meaningful work in real time.
My past has set the stage, and future worries distract with anxiety, so I find a list is a great starting point to be real to the present.

Suratji What you do is what it is what you choose, and it will be what it will be. Non judgement - mindfulness.
take care
G