I've made a decision a few weeks back that it's time for me to not necessarily look for a new T but see "what's out there".
But I'm too scared. I really think it's helpful because my T and I seem to be stuck in our relationship and I need to see what other Ts are like to make a decision or appreciate my T more.

But I just can't stop worrying what will happen. Or I'm too scared to find that consult T would be better and then I would have to terminate with T and I just can't do that.
I feel trapped somehow. Even though it's my decision.

So, what's the worst that can happen?
Or can you tell me why it would be good to see consult T? I need some reassurance.