I can relate to part of this. My mom died when I was 15, so I do know what you mean. Nostalgia can be tough for me, but 20 years later, it's inconvenient but not an obstacle. I put myself through a lot of change on a regular basis, so change itself isn't hard, but I can't think too hard about my childhood or else I get too nostalgic and it kind of overtakes me.

I understand the feeling even though my triggers are different than yours. Although I do not get along well with my dad, I dread the day he passes more than any other fear. You will see me institutionalized, most likely. So, I don't know how to make the feelings stop -- I guess my own coping method was that off suppression, which isn't all that healthy.

I'm sorry about your mom and I am here if you ever want to talk, frostbitten.

Love,
LMo