I feel many moments of drowsiness ( don't know if it really is a result of my medications), and I don't want to get out of bed early most days because I feel so horrible. I have been living as a lazy couch potato for the past three, four years and I'm ready to make a change. I want to get back my strength and be a productive citizen, however, I feel really drowsy and am frightened, impatient, worried, and a whole lot of negative emotions. I don't know if I am suppose to be working, but I feel a strong sense of guilt for taking life so lightly while everyone works their butts off. I want to try harder. I don't have a strong foundation, strong morals, and don't have a strong sense of character. I want to change. I want to feel good about myself, like myself, but I know I will have to develop a strong sense of being good before I can truly appreciate myself and life. How can I change?