Oh no Tree How hard that your session went so wrong at the end, and then when you made yourself vulnerable and reached out, you got another totally unattuned response

I know things seem very bad now, and the lack of sleep must be making it even worse (this isn't saying it's all in your head- I totally understand why you're upset, I would be too). But between you, you have always been able to make it better before, and I do believe you'll be able to this time too.

Could you try again? I know it seems totally counter-intuitive when the last thing you want to do is ever see or speak to T again, let alone help him understand- especially when he's the one person in the world who should know. But it's some kind of inverse rule in therapy land- when you most want to withdraw, reach out. Tell him how his words and actions have made you feel. Make sure he knows.

Thinking of you