What a week's worth of sobriety can do...

I did not expect to feel so much better after one week's worth of not consuming alcohol, but I do! My blood-pressure is pretty high and most likely due to drinking too much and not eating well. Oh, exercise has been non-existent, too. Only after a few days of staying sober, my cravings for fatty foods has drastically changed. Vegetables actually taste good!

I hope I have not damaged my liver to the point where it cannot heal itself.

Alcohol use/abuse does not help with my anxiety or agoraphobia. It worsens everything. It just doesn't seem that way when heavily intoxicated.

I have driven under the influence several times within the past few weeks. I have warned my parents, whom I still reside with, about this behavior, but they do not seem to take what I say seriously. It's their car that I operate while drunk, but they say nothing.

I DO NOT blame them for my troubles with alcohol. I'm just upset because of their callousness and aloofness. Not that I've been an angel. Much to the contrary. Perhaps it is time to move on. Oy, 35 and still living at home??? Yeah, I would think that time came awhile ago!

Drugs... AND alcohol. Drugs.... AND alcohol.

"Do you do drugs?"

-"No, but I drink."

-"Do you get strung out on drugs?"

"No, but I get drunk."

WHAT'S THE DIFFERENCE?????????

The difference is that alcohol is legal to manufacture, sell and consume. Well, that's the only difference that I'm aware of. Oh, it's also legal to advertise for alcoholic beverages.

I'm not going to knock the industries that make money from alcohol production. Eh, maybe a little. Nah, I won't. This isn't about them. It's about me and my poor liver.

"Oh, my poor internal organs! How I have abused and neglected you!"

Hang in there, everyone. Treat yourselves well. Be good to yourselves. Be good to your internal organs.

"What a mess. What a mess. If only I was sober long enough to realize...."

- R a y