"What a mess. What a mess. If only I was sober long enough to realize...."

Sounds like you HAVE realized Ray!!! It makes me happy to see your post. Feeling great after a week of sobriety....just imagine 2 weeks? A month? 6 months? Not that every day is heaven, but it's damn close after you get some sobriety under your belt. Keep it up!!! Life is truly amazing without booze. I'm just like you, never did drugs, just a straight alcoholic. I'm coming up on 9 months sober...you can do it too!!! I'm so proud of you, really proud of you. You rock!!!